Hot Choc!

I told myself, "It'll all be all right". Ten minutes later, I don't seem to feel so right. I miss your smile and laughter. I miss your cheeky grin and friendly gestures. You told me, "Good night." but there was no "dear". You added behind "don't tell me you've fallen for me lar". That was the sign, the indication or the warning. That all I felt is getting stronger. And it's best I don't indulge in it or let it grow stronger. For then, my heart would just break again. As I'm falling deeper and deeper.
You were a brief dream, a sweet dream to me.  I was your friend, and nothing more than that. I'm sorry I tend to be "awkward" with you. Trust me, that's really the last thing I want to do. I don't want to jeopardize our new-found friendship, by letting my feelings to get into the way. And I know you can't feel the same way, like how my heart flutters around you. When you held my chin on that day. And you leaned closer to brush my hair away. I practically stopped breathing and had to stop myself from turning red! I knew I was going to give myself away and my heart would just pop out of my chest. Lucky you didn't notice as you were concentrating on the task at hand. The only reason why, you had to hold my chin up and brush my hair away. I know my dreams were never meant to be. And I should stop having hopes about you and me. But everyday I fall again.. after telling myself it's all over. That you have simply put across your point, that we are only just friends. It's not your fault really, for you have no idea. What runs across my mind, or what thoughts I gather. Everyday I enjoy being in your presence and I long to linger. By just having you as company makes me feel so much more happier. I can't explain how or what or why my actions or my reactions are. In fact, I can't even explain my emotions. They seem to be all over. All I know is, Y.O.U. greatly affect me and my heart gets a tingle. It's either I'm really sad or really happy. The scary part is, I don't even know you that well. IT's only been 4 months? Maybe I'm just thinking too much and maybe I'm just in need. But the feelings I've gathered for you just won't go away! I'm sorry for being weak and I'm sorry for feeling so much when I shouldn't have. I hope I can quickly gather courage. To put the thoughts of you away. my dear dear flutterbug... my lovely hot choc...
I guess it's time to say goodbye and I'll always have happy and sweet memories of the "backyard" day. And hope we can re-live it one day when I have come to terms of me being only just a friend to you and you to me. I wish you the best, I wish you joy. That all the stars in the sky will always shine for you and angels from above will keep you away from harm. That you will eventually find your blossom, in your blossoming garden. And that Happiness follows you and love remains in your heart. Always.
Good night my dear friend. Goodnight.