A letter to you, dear

Dear You, 

Agreed to an affair? What are you? Bloody idiot? 

A girlfriend had agreed to be the girlfriend of a boyfriend of a girlfriend. Isn't that insane? Its like, you know he's married, but you're still marrying him. Tak salahkan polygamy ? (ok, beside the point). 

How does it feel, really? Consistent insecure? consistent insecure leads you to feel uneasy, needy, whiny, suspicious, low-self-esteem (especially when you know his girl..and if you think you don’t want to know about the other woman in his life, you'll end up looking for her, as your feeling towards him goes stronger). But the bigger word is INSECURE. Ouh, I can list you a lot more adjective if you want me to. 

Oh, you think you can be like the guy who sleeps with a girl and never calls her back, don’t you? (err, that’s just a metaphor; the bad one though:-D) You think it’s just a temporary fling that you can get away anytime you want?. A relationship with no attachment? A girl can never be that heartless. You say, there is no string attach, but the fact is you cannot control your heart from attaching that string! 

Why did you agree? Just for fun, you say? Are you nuts? Its going to bite you in the end. I know so. Don’t ruin yourself. But, you are happy, you say?. Yeah, right! You are happy when he's around. When he's not? What happen to you. Miserable right! End this up! You are not the one for this kind of relationship. End this up while you still can. Don’t hurt yourself for nothing! But I like him though, you say? That’s the problem mate! You like but you can’t have him. Is it enough for you that way? “Errmmm, no it’s not. I don’t think it’s enough.”, you’ve finally said it with a heavy sigh. 

I am sorry Jane, as a friend I am supposed to listen not to judge, not to lecture. But to let you wear another scorch marked heart, I can’t, coz I love you so much! Break it off, please. I beg you… 

Best Regards,Me 

P/S: experimental yet a real letter to a friend.